October: Pink Ribbons

So, October is just around the corner, which means it's almost Breast Cancer Awareness time again. Last year, I  worked on a Pink Ribbon Photography project that was exposed in Amsterdam for 2 weeks in association with Cinnamon Wednesdays, an art promotion initiative co-founded by Shishani Vranckx. 


This year, I want to expand the series. All photographs (last years or new) will be on sale again starting in October for E25,-. All profits will go to Breast Cancer. Hopefully, I will also be exposing again this year, but I do not know if this is achieveable. 

So, I am looking for models who are willing to pose (amost) nude for Breast Cancer Awareness. I do want to focus more on the breasts than I was able to last year, so please carefully consider your participation. Anyone interested can contact me at evi.marian@gmail.com or through Facebook. Below are a few of the photographs from last years series. 

ALL PHOTOGRAPHS ARE FOR SALE! 

20x30cm prints + passepartout for 25e each! 

Profits go to Breast Cancer!

Kim Dekker

Evi Oudijn

Shishani Vranckx

ALL PHOTOGRAPHS ARE FOR SALE! 

20x30cm prints + passepartout for 25e each! 

Profits go to Breast Cancer!

Elke

I have a new roommate. She used to model. I took advantage... Here's the result. 

Bitterweet Surrealism and a bit of Cynic.

My thesis is finished. It's not very good, but at least it's good enough. For a little while it looked like I might not be able to start my Master this September, which would have meant a whole year of financial, emotional and scholarly stress. Thankfully, I had the choice between mediocre thesis/start in September and taking an extention/awesome thesis/possibly no Master at all due to financial stress. It wasn't a hard choice for me really, the idea that I finsih my Bachelor with a great grade but then never get the opportunity to start the Master was just inconceivable to me. It was a risk I wasn't willing to take. I am happy with the choice, but it's very bittersweet, and I am not particularly proud it has to come to this.


I have started reading my first required book for the Master program before bed, mostly because I'm not sleeping well. It's a good thing I am getting a fresh early start at the literature, but it would be nice if it wasn't because of stress. Two of my close friends were both left by their partners of 8 and 4 years and both were married. Now I get to spend my weekends and even most weeknights with htme, talking about life, being miserable, and forgetting the world for a minute or two, but I wish it was under different circumstances. I wish i could give them their lives back and make it all go away, but I can't.


The same goes for my best friend Heather who now lives in Canada. I never get to see her, and I rarely get to speak to her, so I love any opportunity to speak with her and remind her how much I love her. I just wish it wasn't at 3am because she's not sleeping over the fact that her grandfather was just admitted to the same hospice her mom died at just a year ago and its causing so much stress that she and her dad are fighting all the time. I wish I could give her her life back, her family back, and take it all away. But I can't. 


My best friend has a girlfriend. I'm so happy for him, I hope all goed well. But I don't think she likes me very much and  I'm afraid I'm going to slowly lose touch with him and never see him again in the near future. I wish him all the happiness in the world, I just wish it wasn't so likely to come with miserable times for myself. 


So where do you draw the line? Where do you take care of others, and where do you start thinking of yourself? When does it become selfish? When does it become foolish and unhealthy? And how can you tell? 


I guess life is like money. It's overcomplicated and always has two sides. Mostly made up out of promises and   representations rather than the real deal. It's time to start living again. For real. Not this routine we've become accustomed to, but life as it was designed. Tomorrow, I am doing something spontaneous. This week, I'm taking a walk in the woods, even if it's raining. Thursday I'm baking an enormous birthday cake for Yvette. I'm going to enjoy the now, instead of prepare for tomorrow. Who's coming with me?